Saturday, May 14, 2016

The last six months.

The boys are outside digging in my garden and I'm ignoring it, and Lucy is sleeping. Daves down in Lethbridge working on our house. It's quiet and all the emotions are hitting me. For a person who loves to share pictures of what we're up to in life and be open about that I've kept some things pretty close. 

Life's been hard lately. It's been in so many aspects of our life that it's tiring. Marriage, money, health and more. It's been one thing after another and it's been hard to catch our breath. I've always felt like I was a strong person. The last six months I haven't felt strong at all. I've needed sisters and friends more then ever. I've had to rely on people for help and it's something I've struggled with. I like being independent. I like when my friends or sisters call me to chat and pour out their hearts to me. I don't like having to be that person. 

I don't even know where to begin... I guess let's start with being diagnosed with Fibromyalgia a few months ago. I started feeling like I'd be spraining parts of my body for no reason. I'd wake up and my elbow would be so sore and tight that I couldn't use it for a few weeks. I'd be extremely tired. (Partly from a baby who doesn't sleep due to so many ear infections). I started becoming really sensitive to pressure. Like a tight hug hurt or kids climbing on me hurt. I'd been getting massages to help with shoulder pain I'd been having but I'd be sore for days from them. Like it bruised my whole back. After tests and Drs appts and X-rays and ultrasounds we got the diagnosis. The next step was how I wanted to go about treatment. During all these tests I also learned I have extremely low iron and thyroid contributing to other things. So after researching and talking with my dr were trying vitamins and a few very low doses of meds to see if it'll help. I've always taken my health for granted and so it's been hard for me to have days where I couldn't do the stairs because it felt like my ankle was sprained. The medication seems to be helping. Although I'm still having flare ups it's not every day. 

The Lethbridge house. Seriously this is a the biggest source of stress lately. After our tenant failed to purchase the house, long story short she didn't sign a new lease so we had to kick her out. Holy is that ever stressful. She refused to email, call or text back for over three weeks.  Since we don't live there it was so hard not knowing what was going on. After she finally left the house was cleaner then we expected but there was more damage then we thought. We had to replace walls, subfloor and all the carpet. Plus so much more. Dave has worked so hard to get it ready for an open house this weekend. We still have so much to do. I'm nervous we won't finish before then but, it is what it is. // MY FAMILY. Oh goodness we could have not done these last few weeks without them. They have been more help in more ways then they realize. Everyone dropping what they have in their busy lives to help us. Dave and I are so grateful for them. There is no way we could have done it without them. We can't wait to get new tenants in there!  It'll be such a relief! It's been such a huge  financial stress on us. I've never seen Dave so stressed before, it's been so hard to let him go do all the work while I'm home with the kids. The house is been a very hard lesson to learn from. We've made a lot of mistakes and it's been hard. 

(Here's pictures I sent to Dave) 

Here's to learning and growing from these experience together. 

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