Wednesday, May 23, 2012


{please be nice when you read this, and know we did what we felt was best for OUR family}
    Today I had to make one of the toughest decisions. We've been tossing back and forth for over 3 months about what to do with DJ. We have been on a waiting list for the last 5-6 weeks for DJ to find a new home through the humane society. It gave us the time to think about it and also to be able to back out if I felt like we could work on her "issues". DJ always had accidents in our house, she was pregnant when we got her and then with puppies we felt,  it was understandable. It was her 5th litter and she was 4yrs old.

   Then around Christmas time something changed. We don't know what? She had already had a hard 3 months and maybe it was just too much. Transitioning in a new home, pregnancy, puppies, and giving up her puppies. But she started having submissive accidents. It started out just being when we weren't home. Then it was sometimes even if we were home. It wasn't like we didn't take her out to go to the bathroom it, was a behavioral thing. Something we tried to "correct" but I don't think Dave and I have the right skills to be able to correct this. That's whats hard about adopting a 4 year old, she's trained in certain ways already.

      As I'm writing this its breaking my heart and I have tears rolling down my cheeks. It was the hardest decision to give her up. To feel like we've failed her some how. That we just took away Levi's best friend. Its taken me 2 days to write this. But I want to let people know so we can avoid the questions to bring up this painful memory. And to avoid Levi having to hear her name and be reminded that she's gone. He's confused and we don't want to confuse him more.

       Yesterday morning she had accidents several times, not sure why. I had taken her out 20 mins prior and she had "went". It was the straw that broke our fragile back. Our lives have had a lot of complications this past month. Its been extremely stressful and I needed to simplify something. We needed to be able to give her the attention she needed. It just wasn't balancing out. So I loaded her and Levi up in the truck bawling and knowing that it was gonna get harder. We hadn't heard back from the humane society and the animal shelter said they could take her right away. (They have a volunteer that comes in and works with dogs and they don't put dogs down.)

     As we pulled up to the animal shelter, the man could see I was struggling and came and helped. They were kind and told me I was doing the right decision. They instantly took her away, leaving Levi crying and confused to where she was. They don't let you say good bye because its just as traumatic for the dog. I filled out a lot of paperwork so that when a family came to adopt they knew her personality. They let Levi see the kitties to distract him while I payed. We had to pay so she could be up to date with shots and a vet check. We kept her collar, and as we left, Levi and I both are crying I did the best I could to explain to him. DJ now lives with her puppy friends and will get to play all the time. Its still hard, I woke up looking for her to take her out. Levi throws a ball and calls her to come play fetch. I watch for her to be sunken in to her spot on the couch basking in the sun. She is incredible at playing fetch. She treats levi like a little king, even if he was trying to ride her or poke her eyes. She loves to cuddle. She loves to sleep on our bed. She made the worlds cutest puppies. She was such a blessing to us, but it just wasn't "balancing" in our lives. We hope and pray that a new family can love her as much as we did and be skilled in helping with her issues.  
                                                              We love and miss you DJ!

                 (lola)        (kisses christmas morning)

                  (maddox)           (DJ in her elf hat)
              (kingston & lola)   (DJ in labour)

Monday, May 21, 2012


I think very few people would actually understand what our last year was like, as far as Dave's working schedule. Dave worked every weekend for a year, he booked a weekend off at Christmas and that was about it. He usually worked 12-13 days out of every 14 day pay period. Our lives were unpredictable and we could never schedule anything. I was going crazy from this, we've been down to one vehicle for the last 5 months so I was housebound and husbandless a.l.o.t!
 BUT as of 2 weeks ago Dave got a supervisor position with Palladin, having explained what the last year was like you may understand why I'm ecstatic about this. He now works 4 days on 4 OFF. I now have something to look forward too. The 4 days on are crazy. Its 7am-7pm for 2 days and then 2 days of 7pm-7am. So Levi doesn't see him much and its hard for him but those 4 days off we just gobble dave up. We just hog him and don't wanna share him with anyone, sorry folks! I haven't had something to "look forward too" with his old position because we never knew when he'd have a day off. It made things seem unbearable at times. Now I know I get through 4 crazy days and then we have 4 glorious days together. 
These 4 days off we got busy and did alot to our house, we're not finished but that's what next weekends for. We have never painted anything on our house, its scared me to make such a permanent change. But it all started with a $30 mistint of paint that I got for $4. So we knocked out the old shelving. . .

 Then we painted it a slate grey, and dave's finishing up the new cabinet to go in and they will be white.
 We organized Levi's toys and made the other half of his room a play room, so now we have hardly any toys in the living room. Hooray!
 Levi started a big boy bed, if your wondering what the lump in his bed is, its a pool noodle. It helps so he doesn't fall out of his bed, pinterest your a genius!
 I started painting the old windows we got from some good friends to use as picture frames!
 We ripped out the old metal fence to put in a new wooden one, because now we can add a gate to it! And DJ will become an outside dog!
I painted over my little chair from when I was a little girl. I love it! Just have to find some new screws to put it together.

I am absolutley loving our new schedule, I have a calender that has dave's work schedule until August. I can book things in advance, this is a wonderful thing!
(and what's a post without this kids cheesy grin)

Tuesday, May 15, 2012


for daddy to get home. .

 so happy to see daddy. . .  the 12 hour shifts are so long for Levi!